The Quickie Summary:
As announced last year, Texuba's retirement is around the corner. I'm trying my darnedest to get to Maui, but like everything else in life, it's taking a bit longer than expected. I want to paint and dye textiles and design with beads in a nice studio space, and I would like to do it before I use Geritol and denture cream. Sigh.......
We will keep everyone posted. Check this website for schedules/updates, and please keep your contact info current.


The Detailed Story for our Longtime Friends & Customers:

Once upon a time, there was a young girl. She would go to the library to do extensive business research. It was quite a task trying to juggle so much data. Fortunately there was a very kind librarian there who would let her take home the business books that were not supposed to be lent out. She was extremely grateful and thought to herself, "One day when I retire, I will return the gift of generosity."

Fast forward to 2006-
My Oh My, what a year of tragedy, grief, turnarounds, and triumphs!

Our regular customers will recall that in 2006, Texuba announced that we will be retiring in 2007. My original plan was to return to my birthplace of Honolulu to help take care of my mother, and then eventually move to Maui. Late last year, my beloved mother got injured, and after weeks of intense pain, passed away.

My grief and sorrow was unbearable, but after seeing her in agony for weeks, it was almost a blessing to see her released from such torture. Running Texuba long distance for several months was certainly stressful.

I decided to go to Maui for a trip to uplift my soul before returning to LA. It was a glorious trip that could not be defined in words. They don't call it Maui the Magical Isle for nothing! I spent many days checking out Maui real estate. My lord, there are a lot of spectacular properties there! One day, I was thinking of perhaps going to Lahaina to see the art galleries. (Maui has the largest population of artists of all the Hawaiian islands).
There is a famous banyan tree there that is nearly an acre, and is the largest one in the nation. They hold a craft fair under it's majestic branches. One day, I was sitting in meditation overlooking a lush green valley. Suddenly,a vision of an enormous banyan tree appeared to my right, and my head was strongly being pulled towards it. I was a comical sight to behold, meditating with my head severely tilted to the right. "Good Heavens, I guess I really must go to Lahaina for some reason!", I thought to myself. Maybe I'll meet some kindred souls there. Maybe I'll catch some sprinkles of enlightenment under the banyan, just like Buddha!

So off I went to Lahaina, and met some lovely folks at the craft fair. I was strolling along by the galleries when I saw this little library. Being a major bookoholic, I decided to stop in because they usually have a small section of books for sale. Although most of what I read is way too esoteric to be found in a library, some rare gems do pop up. I saw a spiritual book from an author I recognized, so I bought it for $1.00. I was browsing through it later when I came across a page with some words so profound, it nearly knocked me over. It was about the yin and yang of giving. I have other books on giving, but never did I ever see it stated like this book. And it also answered some questions that I had about subtle energies, all in a couple of pages! As I held the precious pages in my hands, I suddenly recalled the promise I made to the universe so very long ago, about giving back to the library when I retire. Tears streamed down my cheeks, as I realized why I was sent to Lahaina. I saw a vision of a circle being closed, and after sending my first check to the library, one of many circles is closing.

This is the second time this has happened to me regarding a library. A while back, I got that there was something to be found on the way back from Santa Cruz. I bought a Tibetan turquoise in Carmel." Maybe this is it!", I figured. Heading home towards LA, I ventured into a little library book sale. I found an antique esoteric manuscript, which I recognized as having great value. I bought it for a dollar, thinking that I could sell it on Ebay. It took me a while to get that the documents were meant for me. Duh. I did not at this point recall my childhood promise of giving back, so I suppose my celestial guides wanted to whack me with a frying pan from the heavens. By George, I do believe that I have finally gotten it! My entire Maui trip was a continual series of synchronicities, bliss, and magic that seemed like a fairy tale.

I am back in LA, renewed with a huge sense of enthusiasm. I now know that the universe is totally supporting me in my move to Maui.

THE MAIN FAQ
Many customers will probably be wondering, "Since your mother passed away and you do not have move to Honolulu to assist her, does that mean that Texuba will be staying open?" My reply: I was 100% sure about when I announced 2007 as our final year.
After going to Maui, I am now 1000% sure. I have envisioned a spacious design studio in a magnificent green jungle my entire life, and it will soon become a reality. You would not believe what is happening about the studio, I can barely believe it myself!

We hoped to be finished by Christmas, but everything in life seems to take longer than expected, doesn't it? Closing up shop is a ten ring circus and a roller coaster ride. We continue to work on the many details and the final (extended) season's schedule. Can't hesitate when paradise is waiting!

Notes on Living an Artistic Life:
I have tried to pursue an Artistic Life before, but instead ended up continuing to sell textiles. I thought that I was doing this solely for financial reasons, but I see now that there were also other more subtle,powerful reasons, such as whether I truly deserved to have THAT much fun in my life. My parents always worked very hard, and I would oftentimes catch myself feeling guilty unless I had my head to the grindstone. I remember once chatting with a brilliant friend about art, when she suddenly asked me,"Don't you think it's kind of selfish to do art for a living?" I remember feeling a sense of relief that I wasn't the only dumdum on the planet that could harbor such retarded occasional subconcious thoughts. My conscious mind might be clear on what I want, but it's those other parts that I needed to work on. I am finally completely ready to start a whole new life.

Notes on Meditation:
Although I have been repeatedly and constantly directed by the universe to meditate for most of my adult life, I never got anywhere because I found it the most excruciating thing to do. I have known quite a few people from a particular spiritual group who meditate for two and a half hours daily. I have oftentimes pondered what I would rather do than meditate for two and a half hours in a sitting. I would rather:
1) Work full time at Burger King
2) Hang upside down on a tree branch
3) Take an algebra class
4) How about doing just about anything else instead?

Throughout the years, I have bought huge numbers of books and tapes. Whenever any of them turned out to be mostly about meditation, I gave it a new home, better known as the dust bin. One bunch in my dust bin were some tapes by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. Someone had told me that she had tried everything, and their tapes were some of the finest. For some reason, I pulled them out and started listening to them. It was astonishing to me that they were actually very effective and pleasurable! I quickly reached a point where I could meditate without them. With my yakkety yak yak mind, that is a herculean feat. Magic and miracles occur more and more often in my life now. All the moaning and groaning that I did with the heavens, insisting that the universe was not listening. The only answer that I would get was to meditate. Since I just loathed that answer, I thought that surely the true solution was being withheld from me.

Other outstanding meditation tapes/CDs:
Hemi-Sync- Robert Monroe
Kelly Howell www.brainsync.com

I have wondered how my life would have been different if I had found a suitable meditation method eons ago. All the I-shouldas and I-couldas in the world ain't gonna change a thing now, except make me sad, so drop that thought. I had to learn what I had to learn. If there is anyone alse out there who feels that they should meditate, don't waste years like me, okay?

At least the end of the retirement tunnel is burning brightly now... I am now working 24/7 to produce our Monster shows and manage all the roller-coaster details of closing up shop in these final months. Once again I barely have time to meditate... I guess it's a daily learning process. The mucho big difference now is that I can hardly wait for the time when I can once again meditate daily. I can hardly believe that I just stated that! Even from the ashes of so much pain, life has produced so many miracles that it can never go back to how it was. Here's to a grand future for all of us!

 

 

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